Monday, July 1, 2013
Episode 3. Part 1. Suddenly Trolls
Friday, June 21, 2013
Episode 2. Suddenly Werewolves
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Episode 1. Suddenly Ninjas
Friday, January 25, 2013
Legacy
Every night before he goes to bed I sing him a little song. It is nothing extraordinary or mind-blowing. It may be simple but what I like about it that the song is only for him. Here it goes.
Oh son of mine, I shall love you forever more.
Oh boy of mine, you shall always be in my heart.
Oh son of mine, I will protect you for all of my days.
Oh boy of mine, you are my pride and joy.
You are the flesh of my flesh.
You are the blood of my blood.
Oh son of mine, I shall love you forever more.
Oh boy of mine, I shall love you forever more.
I love singing this to him. I pick him up and he gives me a great big hug and he rests his head on my shoulder. As long as I sing to him he won't move a muscle. Sometimes I'll sing the song two, three or even four times just so I could hold my boy a little longer. He doesn't mind when I sing longer because it means he doesn't have to go to bed yet!
I love me boy very, very much. He really is my pride and joy.
When I think about my son I think about him growing up and what kind of man he will be. Most of the time I just wonder what his personality will be or what kind of things he will like and dislike. Will he like sports like me? Will he like video games like me? Will he like to write like me? Will he be horrible at math like me? Will he be caring and full of love like his mother? Will he be smart and very good looking like his mother? Will he always have a smile on his face like his mother?
Or will he be like both of us? Or will he be like neither of us?
Will he be a man of God?
That one always get me.
I don't know what he will like or won't like. I don't know what his personality will or will not be. He will be his own unique wonderful person.
No matter who he turns out to be the one thing I want to see in him is godliness. To have a fear of the Lord and a passion for Christ.
I can't control that, no matter how much I wish I could just say "Son, you will be a good follower of Jesus or I will give you a spanking!" I cannot force him to be what I want.
All I can do is be the best example I can be.
My father is the greatest man I know. In every way you can imagine he is my hero and my role model. He is also the godliest man I could think of. He never tried to "make" me godly. Never tried to force me to believe in Christ. Instead he lead by example. I can say the absolute number one reason for my faith in Christ is my father, bar none. Instead of telling me how to do something or forcing me to believe this he showed me how it was done every single day.
I would like to think that my dad doesn't even realize how much I watched him when I was growing up. Maybe he did, maybe he didn't. But the fact remains I watched him very, very carefully. By watching how he would handle situations and by watching how he would deal with problems showed me the right way to do things.
I want to do that for my son.
My dad left a legacy. He left me. He left his mark on me and now I want to leave my mark on my son.
It is going to take time. A lot of time. For my dad to leave his mark on me took 23 years. Even today I learn from watching my dad.
I'm willing to put that time and effort into my own son. I'm ready to starting leaving my mark o my son. Lord willing he will become a godly young man like me and like my father and his father before him.
I am so excited to watch my boy grow up and show him how to live a godly life.
Now I am not perfect. I am far from perfect. I am probably as far from perfect as you can get. I still have a lot to learn but I am excited to learn so I can teach my son.
I want to leave a legacy. My dad once told me "The greatest gift any parent can receive is seeing their grandchildren growing up to be godly men and women."
I put the emphasis on grandchildren because that really is the whole point. If you pour your efforts into to being a good example for your children and showing them how to live godly lives the best reflection of that would be to see their children growing up to be godly.
More than anything I want to give this gift to my father. And someday I want Clayton to give this gift to me.
This is a legacy people. Something that my father left to me. Something I plan to leave to my son. Something that I hope and pray will carry down through generations and generations.
This is dedicated to my dad and my son. I love you both.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Lemons
If you swing on every curve ball you are going to strike out.
Sometimes when life throws something at you, something you never saw coming, it is best not to swing at all. Life tries to bait you into the swing, sometimes it tries to make you think your only option is to swing, but most of the time you do have a choice. Don't swing.
If life were to throw me a huge curve for example, something that is a game-changer, would it make any difference for me to swing? Why should I freak out? Why should I panic? Why should I worry? I should not.
"Can any of you by worrying and a single hour to you life?" Mathew 6:27
There are time you want to swing at that curve ball. Times where you should react to life's little adventures. When you do react, don't freak out.
I am a child of God. I am a disciple of Christ. I am Cory Goyer.
If the creator of all has my best interests in mind, why should I worry?
Stuff happens. Stuff happens all the time. Bad stuff. Good stuff. Stuff.
When the bad stuff comes, when I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, when it starts to rain... Why worry?
I don't really have a point or purpose for this post. If I did it would be something like this; don't sweat the small stuff. Even the big stuff, don't sweat it.
Can you do something about the problem you're having? Yes? Then why worry?
Can you do something about the problem you're having? No? Then why worry?
I would consider myself a very laid back person. I have been called laid back by a lot of people as well. The reason I am like this is because I do not feel like I need to worry about things. Be prepared? Yes. Know how to handle a situation? Yes. Plan for the future? Yes. Worry? No.
Why worry?
I guess I really am starting to repeat myself so I will wrap this up. Above I have a quote from Jesus. He asks a very simple question "Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"
Life is what it is. We can be ready, prepared and expecting challenges and difficulties but we do not need to worrying about them.
Oh, if life gives you lemons... re-gift them to someone you don't like.
That's all folks. Cory G, out.
Monday, January 21, 2013
Goblins
Is time money?
Essentially yes.
We as humans are given a vermy small amount of time to live. A small amount of time to do what we were put here for.
What were we put here for? I don't know. But I only have a little bit of time to do it.
Of course time = money when it comes to jobs. You complete X amount of work in Y amount of time and get compensated Z amount of dollars in return. I trade my time for money.
Time is also money in another way. How you invest your money shows what is importnant to you. Eating food is important to me therefore I spend a significant amount of money on food. Having a place to live is important to me so I spend a signifacnt amount of money on rent. Makign sure my son stays healthy and clean is very important to me so I spend a significant amount of money on diapers.
I alos spend qutie a bit of money on games, movies and other recreational things so one could assume that ammusement is important to me. Which it is. More than it should be but that is a whole different blog.
So spending your money on things shows what is important to you. Money doesn't grow on trees so spending money can be a big deal.
Likewise, what you spend you time doing shows what is important to you.
I spend a lot of my time working in order to make money. Does that mean making money is important to me? Yes and no. Making money for the sake of making moeny is not important to me but making money in order to have money for things like food, rent, diapers and other things for my family and I is very important to me. So obviously working takes up a lot of my time so I can have the moeny I need.
What else do I spend my time doing?
I spend a lot of time with my wife and son becuase they are both incredibly important to me. I spend time playing games and watching movies becuase ammusement is important to me. I spend a lot of time sleeping becuase being well rested is important to me. I spend time eating, hanging out with friends and family, cleaning and all sorts of other things becuase those things are important to me.
So now I know these thigns that are important and things I spend my time on. The big question is; how much time do I spend on each thing?
If I were to tell you I spend $20 dollars every other month to go out and watch a movie then you might assume that going to the movies is not that important. I mean it is just $20 every other month. That totals $120 a year. To me that is not a big deal.
If I were to tell you that a spent $20 twice a week to go out and watch a moive then you might assume that going out and watching movies was very important to me. Instead of $120 a year now I am spending $2,080 a year on movies. To me that is a very big deal.
In the same way what you spend your time on reflects how important the activity is to you.
If I spent one hour everyday reading books then I would spend 365 hours a year reading. If I spent two hours everyday playing games I would spend 730 hours a year playing games. If I spent three hours everyday cleaning then I would spend 1095 hours a year cleaning. If I spend four hours everyday being with my wife and son then I would spend 1460 hours a year with my wife and son.
See how quickly that stacks up?
For example I average 7 hours of sleep everyday. That means I spend 2555 hours every year sleeping.
I work on average 5.714 hours every day (40 hours devided by 7 days). That means I spend 2085.71 hours a year working.
Time is money, friend.
Spend your time well.
P.S. 20 points if you know why this post is called goblins.
Friday, January 18, 2013
The Tale of Tippet
At only seventeen Tippet was the youngest ninja to ever complete the the Night Trials. Even though was still learning most of the shadow arts he was a prodigy in the art of combat. When he was only twelve he defeated six upperclassmen by himself in a sparring match. He was a natural with the sword but even though he could have been the best in his class with almost no effort Tippet continually pushed himself everyday.
More than anything he wanted to be a ninja grandmaster and lead the crusade against the Light Stone. Even now, as he waited in a dark alley he could feel his anger burn inside him at the thought of those fanatics.
The Light Stone was a group of religious zealots who murdered his entire village when we was barely more than a baby. Even though he was so young he could still remember the event perfectly.
The Light Stone samurai's tore through the village. Slaughtering dozens upon dozens of helpless civilians. His father and mother were cut down right before his eyes. Only moments before one samurai was about to kill Tippet the Darkheart ninjas appeared.
Tippet remembers the look of confusion on the samurai's face as he was cut down by the Darkheart. The Darkheart saved him that day, unfortunately they did not make it in time to save anyone else. Tippet was all that was left. From that day forward he devoted himself to becoming the most powerful ninja in existence and to eradicate the Light Stone.
Blessed Cage
Trapped by my own shackles
While the key lies in my hand.
A glass cage surrounds me
Keeping me from touching the beauty around me.
Self-destruction is my only redemption.
Pain my only source of joy.
To live a life I do not want
And want a life I do not live.
Why do I do this?
Because I do want the life I live.
Thoughts fly free through the glass
And my mind is not caged.
My body is in slavery
But my heart roams freely.
I love those I love.
I love those I hate.
I have been given more in this cage
Than most have received in their lives.
I have been given the love of my life
Who I can spend everyday with.
I would not trade that for anything.
Am I really imprisoned
Or I am free?
I have home for living
Bread for eating
A family for loving.
I have all that I need
But not all that I want.
Do I need all that I want?
No.
I am free.
Free to enjoy the things I have been blessed with.
This blessed cage
Is not a cage at all.
It is freedom.
Freedom from a life without walls.
Without walls I could wander.
Wander far from home
Or far from where I belong.
I love the life I'm given.
As I realize the blessing I have
I notice that there never was any glass.
I am free.
Through Christ I am free.
I love my wife.
I love my son.
I love my family.
I love my life.
I love my God.
Thank you, Lord, for my blessed cage.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
One Big Loss
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
That One Big Rock
This was a concept I pieced together the first time I ever went to the Czech Republic and then to Mexico. I call it "Cory Goyer's theory of the moon.
I was a young man who was going on not one but two mission trips back-to-back. It was over a month that I was gone and that was the longest period of time I had ever been away from home.
I missed Montana.
Another little spiget (word?) of information about me is; I love Montana. I really do. I think it is an amazing place. Where I live is beautiful and a great place to live. The summers are awesome. The winters are awful. I love this place.
So by the time I had the left the Czech republic and flew straight to San Diego I had started to miss home. A lot.
Now don't get me wrong I wasn't some awful crybaby just whining and complaining and wishing I could go home to my nice bed and drinkable water. I was homesick yes, but I very much enjoyed my time in Mexico. Some of the greatest God experiences in my life. Was such a fun and fulfilling experience.
I did miss Montana.
One of the nights we were walking around I started feeling a little more homesick then normal. I still had over a week before I got to go home and was just missing the place I love. It was fairly dark out and there was a big bright moon. As I looked up at the moon I thought how nice it would be to look at the big beautiful moon in Montana.
It hit me like an unhappy hippo.
It is the same moon.
Yup. The moon I was looking at right now was the exact same moon I look at in Montana. In fact being that we were in Baha California there was a very good chance that people in Montana were looking at the very same moon right now.
I was so dumbfounded and bewizzled (word?) that I actually laughed out loud which caused several people to give me quite puzzled looks. I didn't care if they thought I was a freak. I just figured out something amazing.
Now you may be saying to yourself "of course it is the same moon". If you said that to yourself, be afraid, I can read your mind.
The cool thing was not finally realizing that it was in fact the same moon but that I could look at the same moon from, well, anywhere. No matter where you are on the planet you can see the moon.
Not at all times mind you. For example those who live in very high latitudes (approaching the poles) have certain times of the month where they cannot see the moon at all. If given enough time though they will be able to look at the very same moon you and I do.
Even in the southern hemisphere they look at the very same moon. The moon looks different to those in the southern hemisphere. If you were to compare the moon in the southern hemisphere (Australia for example) to the moon in the northern hemisphere (Montana for example) it would look upside down.
Yup. The people in Australia actually see the moon upside down. How weird are they?
I find it fascinating to think that no matter where we are we can all look at the same moon.
Most of my family lives in Arkansas and I live in Montana. I get to see the very same moon they do. When I was in Mexico I get to gaze upon the same moon as Montana. No matter where I go or how far I travel from home I get to look at the same moon.
The moon makes me feel like home, everywhere.
The other cool thing the moon does is it connects us. The above mentioned states talked about how I like the moon because it makes me feel good and feel closer to home anywhere, but the moon does that for more than just me.
Like I said, my family lives in Arkansas, thousands of miles away. Even though the are so far we are united by the same moon.
In fact, everyone on the planet is united by the same moon. We all get to look at it and by looking at it we are connected while being separate.
Some people look at the moon in wonder and awe. Some look at just because it is there. Other don't even process the fact that they see the moon in the night sky since it is such a common sight.
Whatever the purpose or reason someone looks at the moon the fact remains; it is the same moon.
So my ultimate purpose is this; when you look at the moon think of me, your friendly neighborhood Cory Goyer. When you look at the moon think of your loved ones who may be far away. When you look at the moon think those you don't even know who is looking at the same moon with you. When you are far away then look at and think of home. That one big rock in the sky can be a point of connection to anyone and anywhere on the planet.
I like the moon. Do you?
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
A Different Shade of Blue
Above is a "catchphrase" that I created a long time ago. Now I am by know means saying I was the very first person in the whole entire world in the history of mankind to say that sentence, I'm just the first I know of.
The whole point of seeing the world in a different shade of blue stemmed from me wondering if every single human being saw the same colors. Now right off the bat we know they don't. Some people are colorblind. Some people are partially colorblind. I'm sure that there are other problems that cause people to see different colors as well. And we won't even go into drugs that claim to let you see things you couldn't see before.
Putting all that aside my thoughts were this: how do we know that when you and I see the a blue wall that we are seeing the same color?
Now granted we both call it blue. It is blue. It's color IS blue. But I might see differently than you.
Let's say that if I were to temporarily take over your body (creepy I know, just role with this) and look at the same blue wall I just looked at, what would I see? Would I see the same blue? Or maybe you mind interprets colors differently and what I was now seeing I would call red.
Get it?
Your "blue" might be my "red".
Trippy? Probably not.
Most people don't think like I do. Most people don't ponder what colors would be if they body-swapped with their friends.
But now that I am older (this epiphany came to me in early college) I take my little catchphrase a little differently.
See, the world has many, many colors. Blues, reds, greens, whites and so forth. Now these "colors" are not actually colors but opinions and thought processes.
Thought processes? Who in the world talks like that? Well, I do. I say thought processes for a very specific reason. I like the term "thought process" because it really is a process.
Everyone see's the world differently. That is what being human is about. It is impossible to see the world the same as anyone else. You will always have different ideas and opinions and thought processes than someone else. It doens't matter how alike you are with your best friend, your wife, your siblings, your parents, the fact remains that you will see the world in a slightly (sometimes drastically) different shade.
It is all about your thought process. What made you think what you are thinking now? Hopefully if you are reading this you are thinking about yourself thinking about this post. Becuase I am telling you to think about thinking about this you should be thinking about it (lol). So what you are thinking right now should be pretty simple to trace your thought process. But what about other things?
What was your thought process when you decided you don't like brocolli? What was your thought process when you decided to vote for a president? What was your thought process when you chose your major in college?
Now some (ok most (ok all)) of these have to do with experiences in life. Maybe you ate some overcooked brocolli when you were little and it left you with a bad experience. Maybe one candidate had a veiw you didn't like so you voted for the other guy.
But it all comes down to how we view the world. What colors we see. What we think.
Back to what I was very first talking about, picture this: I take over your body like I did before (creepy again) but this time instead of looking at a blue wall I looked at politics or food or people or any number of things. Would I be surprised? Would I be shocked to see the world how you did? I'm not seeing a difference in color but a difference in perspective, in life.
Looking through your eyes what am I going to see? A whole new shade of blue.
I love people. I love how people think. What caused tham to think what they and do what they do.
"If I saw the world in a different shade of blue, how would you know unless I showed you?"
We have to share with the world our views, our shades. People won't know unless you show them. How could they? They see things completely differently.
Now you don't have to be mean about it. Or rude. Or indignant. But share. Share your shades. I want to see them.
What is your shade of blue?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Look At All The Sheeple
They all fall in line
One at a time
It's all so concise
So very precise
As if they share one mind
One purpose that is none
One reason that is done
When the wolves run the herd
Only their voice is heard
And every thought is from their head
As we feed them their bread
Look at all the sheeple
Led no longer by the Shepherd
Instead they turn away
Instead they run away
Led by the lion
To the edge of a cliff
To an unseen abyss
As they all start lying
Not only to themselves
But also to each other
Follow me
Follow us
One, two, here we go
And off the edge they follow
The wolves and lion feast
Or then dine at the least
But the Shepherd has returned
He is calling to His sheep
"Come this way
Away from the wolves
Away from the lions
I call you, follow me"
Some sheeple listen
Most sheeple don't
He cries to them
"Why can't you see?
To conform is to die
To be the same is to die
This world want you to die
The wolves feast on you
The lions devour you
Come with me and live"
Some sheeple listen
Most sheeple don't
Now all the shepherds people
Turn and follow Him
They begin to cry out as well
"Come and follow Him!
He has opened our eyes
We are no longer the sheeple
That we once were
We have found a new way!"
Some sheeple listen
Most sheeple don't
And now the sheeple die
And the wolves and the lions
Enjoy their dinner
Those with the shepherd
His people
Enjoy a new life
A full life
Look at all the sheeple
Why can't they see?
"You laugh at me because I am different. I laugh at you because you're all the same."
Monday, November 2, 2009
My Kite
The wind is blowing so hard.
Tonight I've come so far.
I don't know what else to say to you.
I know what you've told me.
But I know you're the only.
I don't know what else to say to you.
Bridge:
Just being with you gets me this way.
Chorus:
Tonight I want to touch the sky,
I know you can bring me that high.
Tonight I want to reach the stars,
I know you can take me that far.
Tonight I want to fly,
I know you can make me that high.
Tonight, you are, my kite.
Verse 2:
This crazy wind at my back.
My heart's under attack.
I'm being blown in her direction.
Like a raging hurricane,
I'm helpless to stop a thing.
I'm being blown in her direction.
Bridge:
Just talking to you gets me this way.
Chorus:
Tonight I want to touch the sky,
I know you can bring me that high.
Tonight I want to reach the stars,
I know you can take me that far.
Tonight I want to fly,
I know you can get me that high.
Tonight, you are, my kite.
Bridge:
I'm being blown in your direction...
Just being with you gets me this way...
Chorus:
Tonight I want to touch the sky,
I know you can bring me that high.
Tonight I want to reach the stars,
I know you can take me that far. Tonight I want to fly,
I know you can get me that high.
Tonight, you are, my kite.
Tonight, you are, my kite.
The End
Chorus:
This is the end
This is the end of everything I ever knew
This is the end
This is the end when everything is falling through
This is the end of me No more pain, no more lies; no more frustration; I’ma give my life a new dedication
This is the end
This is the end of life as I always knew it
This is the end
My second chance cuz the first time I blew it
This is the end Of me
Verse:
This is the end of everything that I ever ‘held dear’
This is the end of my pain, my lies, my hate, my fears
This is the end of life, and of blood, of breath
It’s time to reach out for the fallout and take the next step
Off the cliff into the abyss and blackness of my self
And as I fall into the darkness I escape my hell
Because the blackness all around me is not fear that surrounds me
But instead a blanket of grace that has found me
And I know that you know who I was long ago
But I know that side of me will no longer show
I am changed, rearranged, irrefutably saved
And I know that this life will never be the same
This is the end of the beginning, the beginning of the end
If you don’t understand go back to what we first said
Because
Chorus:
This is the end
This is the end of everything I ever knew
This is the end
This is the end when everything is falling through
This is the end of me
No more pain, no more lies; no more frustration; I’ma give my life a new dedication
This is the end
This is the end of life as I always knew it
This is the end
My second chance cuz the first time I blew it
This is the end of me
Verse:
This is the end
Of my old life; the beginning of my new one
This is the end
To erase my past and step into the person I’ve become
This is the end
Of what I’ve done and who I’m running away from
This is the end
I’m ending who I was; stopped marching to the drums
This is the end
I’m letting go; I’m breaking free; getting away from all of me
This is the end
I’m escaping all I’ve ever done, my new life has begun
This is the end
I’m running the race that I have already won
This is the end
Fall into me; my time is gone
Only in silence I belong
To be forgotten in this place
Recaptured only by the grace
I found forgiveness in its strength
It brings me back to finding faith
Pure light has given me these wings
And through it now I’ve been set free
This is the end
This is the end
This is the end
I’ve been set free
This is the end
This is the end
This is the end
I’ve been set free
This is the end
This is the end
This is the end of me
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
My Soap Box
But the truth is up here I can't see squat. I only blind myself in thinking I am better than others. So here I come, climbing down. Down to a world that is flawed and filled with wrongs. Down here, where I don't think I'm so much better, it is so easier to see. And much easier to get stuff done.
But here is one thing I see no matter where I stand.
"You have your problems and I have mine. You deal with your own shit and I'm gonna deal with mine." This is the way of the world. This is the way of our lives.
Why?
Since when did we, as americans, become this way?
Since when did we, as christians, become this way?
Since when did we, as friends and family, become this way?
Since when did we, you and I, become this way?
We seem to think that it is simply polite to keep our problems to ourselves. I mean they are own problems and we wouldn't want to burden others with them. But why? Since when is that ok? A Swedish proverb say this:
"Shared joy is double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow."
Why can't we learn that when we hurt there are those around us who want to help? What good is it to close yourself off from the world around you and suffer alone? It hurts worse than anything. Not only to have to suffer our pains alone but to have to keep them from people.
And even in the bible it says this:
"Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2
So let's recap. Not only by letting other people help us in times of pain will we not have to suffer as much, we also fulfill the law of Christ. By helping others and letting others help us with obey our Saviour and our Creator! Sounds like a good motivation to me.
We have become a society where it is "cool" or "normal" to deal with our own problems. How often do you hear "this is my problem and I'm gonna take care of it!" in a movie or TV show? This is who we've become. And I wanna know why!
I ask for two reasons: One is because I am human. I have my ups and my downs. And during my downs I want to have someone there who can help me weather the storm and by doing so lead me to another up. But I am frightened that people will think I'm too much to handle. I'm afraid that if I open up and reveal my problems people will look down on me, because that is the nation we're in. We see movie stars and models and so many people who the media tells us are perfect. So anyone with problems in less than perfect and therefore not worthy. That is such bullshit. Everyone is flawed. Especially me. Which is why I need the support if others to help me get through hard times. But I'm afraid because of what we have become.
And the other reason is because I like to be there for people. There was a time not to long ago I had this friend who had some major problems. They continued to rely on me for support and it got to be so much I thought I couldn't handle it anymore. I was near the point of telling this friend to deal with their own pain and leave me out of it when I stopped and thought about why I would do that. Why would I stop helping them? Why? So I prayed and thought about and came to the realization that it wasn't because they were being too much but because I simply didn't want to deal with it. But the truth is there should never be a "too much" for those we care about. There should never be a marker that if this person is just too messed up I'm not gonna deal with it anymore. No! We should always be there for each other. To take each other's hand and help each other through the storms and the valleys. That way we can enjoy the sunshine and the mountain tops together! After this realization I have always tried to be there for people. And I enjoy being there for people. Even though I fail sometimes beacuse I am human, I always try.
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough
Saturday, October 24, 2009
My Destiny Is To Be Extraordinary
10:45pmShawn
yes! what are you doing!
10:45pmCory wishing i was in shape and cursing my misfortune :P
10:46pmShawn
that sounds lame!
10:47pmCory
in fact it is
10:47pmShawn
what are you going to do about it?
10:47pmCory
but i'm listening to "Life Is Beautiful" so it all balances out
what am i gonna do about it?
Well shoot son...
I'm gonna continue to try and reach the immposible
I'm gonna continue to break boundries
I'm gonna continue to break my own limitations
I'm gonna continue to everyday become more and more Christ-like
10:49pmShawn
swweet thats good
10:49pmCory
"It is not who we are on the insde, but what we do that defines us."
I could be the most godly man on the planet. And when I died I'll enter heaven. But what good was my life if I didn't effect others?
What good is my life is I simply sat around and did nothing?
My life would have been worthless, selfish even.
To have kept God all to myself.
See my freind I curse my misfortune and wish for things I don't have in order to drive me to become better.
What am I gonna do about it?
I'm going to be extraordinary.
Period.
. <-------- A PERIOD!
10:52pmShawn
sounds like a poem!
lol
10:52pmCory
maybe it should be :)
10:52pmShawn
maybe?!
Cory
lol
i don't suppose you've read any of my blogs?
10:53pmShawn
ive read a couple
10:53pmCory
oh nice
i think i'm gonna right a blog right now.
you've inspired me :)
10:54pmShawn
lol what exactly are you going to do though
10:54pmCory
What do you mean?
10:55pmShawn
define "extraordinary"
10:55pmCory
I can't define that. Becuase I don't know yet.
That is for God to define.
I'm His piece of clay. I will be molded to what He sees fit.
10:56pmShawn
oh
10:57pmCory
So "extraordinary" is simply following the will of my Creator.
10:58pmShawn
gotcha
10:58pmCory
but for now i'm not gonna give up.
10:59pmShawn
good
10:59pmCory
no matter how few friends i have or how many girls break my heart. i can't give up. becuase then I can't be what God wants me to be.
10:59pmShawn
thats good'
11:00pmCory
yup
Thursday, October 15, 2009
The Past, Present and Whatever's Left.
I find myself using (some of) these sayings quite often. Thinking back to good times and good memories. Wishing I could re-live an event or period in my life. So many happy moments that I wish I could do just one more time...
But why? Why would I want to go back? Why would I want to re-live a happy time? Is it because I am not satisfied? Is it because I think I was happier then? Is it because I'm not happy now?
Yes. To all.
I am not satisfied. I think I was happier then. I'm not happy now.
But why? Why I am not satisfied with my life? Why do I have this thought process that I have already lived the best years of my life? Why can't I be ok with what I have now? And was I really happier then? They say hindsight is 20/20. I say that's crap. When you look back at a good time in your life that is all you tend to see. That good time. You don't take into consideration the problems you had then. The bad times that go with the good times. Hindsight is not 20/20. Not even close.
And why am I not happy now? I have an amazing family. I have an amazing life. I got a few good friends. Why can't I just enjoy life? Is it because I don't have a job? Maybe. Is it because I don't have more friends? Maybe. Is it because I don't have a girlfriend? Honestly, probably.
I gonna go out on a limb and be honest here (don't think it matters much because I don't think any even reads this silly blog). Recently I have been living like I don't have much of a future. I have been living for the past and the present. And the future is just the thing that's left over. I hate that I live like this. And I'm trying to change it.
I mean I do have a future right? DUH! My future is in Christ. And even as I write these words I have a hard time believing them. I know I have a future in Christ, but I don't feel it.
I try and try and try and it is never good enough...
Never good enough for them... Never good enough for her... Never good enough period.
So I guess I'll just have to be good enough for God. Becuase He is the only one I can ever really please.
I guess that'll be good enough for now.
I am Cory Goyer. Living for MY future IN Christ.
Monday, October 12, 2009
I Am Phoenix
Even putting aside my incredible fascination with fire, there are so many things about this mythical wonder that intrigues me. The fact that so many different civilizations and cultures had myths and legends about this bird. And how it is a symbol of life and re-birth. But the ability to rise again, new and whole, it is just amazing.
I have been burned, so many times. By people, events, even my own wrong doings. I have been severely burned.
But just look at the phoenix. Amazing bird. It has been burned again and again and again. But it always rises from the ashes. New. Revived. Refreshed. Ready to live again.
Truth is I am not like this bird. Not on my own at least. I cannot rise from my ashes. I can't survive being burned so many times. Eventually I just won't be able to take it. And I will just fade away.......
At least that is what I use to think.
Now there is something different, something new. I have a secret that makes me just like the phoenix.
My secret is God.
I have been burned. I have turned to ashes. But through God and through Christ I have risen anew. "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"2 Corinthians 5:16-18
So the truth is you can burn me, over and over again. And it will hurt for a while. But no matter how many times you burn me. I'm gonna rise again. New and whole in Christ my God.
I am Cory Goyer. I am Phoenix.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Let Them Sleep
But why do I let words get in the way? Or why do I let the escape me?
Words can be so powerful. So beautiful. So amazing. Yet at the same time so destructible and violent.
Why can't I ever say what I want? Is it manners? Is it the fear of hurting others? Or the fear of being rejected? Why can't I tell you what I really want to tell you?
Like you. I want to tell you so many things. Starting with I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the way I treated you. I'm sorry for what I did. I put so much focus on all the wrongs things. I told you things you didn't need to know. I did things that didn't need to be done. We have both suffered because I messed up. And I'm sorry.
And you. I don't like you. I think you are cocky and immature. I think the way you handled things with her was wrong. you treated her poorly and made her feel like crap. So I really don't like you.
And you. How could you do what you did to me? Honestly? To make me think one way for so long then to drop it like a hot rock? I don't know about you but that hurt me. A lot. And then what you did after. To add insult to injury. I don't know when I'll recover from that. How could you?
And you. Gosh I care about you so much. So, so much. I just wish you could see that. All I want is for you to live the best life you can. And I'm so worried that the people you place yourself around won't give you that life. I'm so afraid that those you chase after will only hurt you again and again. I just want the best for you. But you don't seem to want the best for yourself.
And you. I'm sorry. You didn't deserve what I did to you. you are a good person. And I know I cut you deep. I wish I could take it back.
So many things I want to say. I wish I could add names to these statements. But I can't. For some reason or another I'm afraid of these words. I want to say what i want to say but I know I can't. It is sometimes better to let sleeping dogs lie.
I love words, but I also hate them. I hate their ability to destroy. I wish I didn't even want to say these things. But I do. But I don't.
Just another confusing pointless blog by me. I am Cory Goyer. And don't you forget it!